Still Waters Run Deep...

I'm JoJo...

2009-02-25T21:51:00.000-06:00

Back In Action...

2008-12-19T11:32:00.003-06:00

So lets see if I can get back to this a little more often.

It is almost Christmas... dang, it is almost 2009!

It has been quite the year.

So I hope you all get what is on your Christmas list... but more importantly you enjoy your last days in 2008.

Passion Of An Artist's Heart

2008-11-05T13:28:00.001-06:00

Quotes, quotes, & quotes...

2008-10-04T13:57:00.002-05:00

I love quotes...

you know the ones that make you think

or that just strike you right and you so easily can relate to.

I also love it when you try to remember one that you use to love or that you heard one time and you just can't find the right words for but you still make the point known.

I enjoy the fact that one person can say a line and then be remembered for it.

Whether good or bad...

then only to be taken and formed to fit another's situation and need for it.

A simple line...

that may have been said in jest...

or in a jut wrenching moment...

or to dig deeper in to the thoughts in your head.

A simple line... that you may never know what brought it on... why it was said... what its original purpose was for... other than what it now means to you.

The point was clear, but do we see it?

We're even...

2008-09-11T20:12:00.005-05:00

While in Point I decided to catch up to Bla with holes...

Great shots.

Okay, I'll update.

2008-08-15T15:05:00.002-05:00

Not sure what to write...

I've been working like crazy at Minsky's and getting to know my co-workers. Good times. Great stories not going to put on here! ;)

Going to a Chiefs game tomorrow with my cuz and some people from church... going to the Chiefs-Broncos game in September with a guy from work. I love my Broncos!

Poker on Monday after work with some co-workers.

Diggity is coming next weekend!!! Yeah!!!

Basically, if you want to be updated... you can call me! Ha! It is just easier that way!

I mainly just like posting pics.

One of my new babies! :)

2008-08-08T17:16:00.000-05:00

I'm pimpin a Cadi these days!

Fam came to Kansas!

2008-08-04T10:31:00.005-05:00

Happy 80th Poppy!

Shelly Belly & me rockin our sweet new hats!
I scared Bubby! ha!

Chelc & me!

Jordy loves me!
See... he really does! ;)
Darin & me... I stole his sunglasses, I like them!
Bubby Diddles gettin kisses... ha!
My Daddy & me...

If everything looks black, we probably have our eyes shut.

2008-07-10T19:00:00.001-05:00

A better place...

2008-07-09T20:25:00.004-05:00

With the Finch's! :)
This Bunny has quite the story... saved it from evil D. at Cass ranch with Kaffrin. We saved 3... Kaffrin decides to kill hers by leaving it in a box, outside a school on a Friday night, in the middle of winter. Crazy girl. Can't forget Davina's... fed it the wrong type of lettuce or something, sadly it died. BUT mine is a healthy one! Her name is Bunny Bon Jovi aka Bones. With my moving and all, I had to find her a good home and I did just that. :)

Saying goodbye...

2008-07-09T20:16:00.000-05:00

Proof!

2008-07-09T20:14:00.001-05:00

I do wear dresses...

I love the sky...

2008-07-09T20:10:00.002-05:00

Header!

2008-07-09T19:27:00.001-05:00

We paused to take pretty pictures during our open house marathon.

2008-07-01T16:43:00.001-05:00

2008-07-01T16:32:00.000-05:00

If you want to see pics... please be very patient.

Thank you.

Just an update...

2008-06-29T17:16:00.001-05:00

I'm in Kansas...

most likely missing you.

2008-06-04T13:47:00.001-05:00

How does a girl dive head first into a rabbit hole and not come out changed? The truth is, she doesn't.

Graffiti!

2008-05-08T01:54:00.001-05:00

I made those on facebook graffiti on Lindsay's wall. HAHA. Wasting my precious sleeping time on it.

Perspective

2008-05-04T23:35:00.004-05:00

One thing is certain, change is inevitably! People change, jobs change, styles change, even seasons change. God has designed us to need change, but so many people fight it... I know I do. I tend to hold on to the old because it's familiar. It's what I'm use to, it's comfortable. If we're not careful, we'll get stuck in a rut, to the point where we are not growing, we're not stretching, not using the potential on the inside. That's one reason God sends change. He won't allow us to stay stuck and sometimes the very thing we fight against, the things we think are trying to pull us down, is actually the hand of God trying to push us into a new season. He will stir us out of comfortable situations and put us in situations that'll make us stretch, that force us to use faith. We may not like it, it may be uncomfortable, but God loves us too much to just leave us alone.
God can open doors and just as easily close them. Nothing happens by accident. God is directing every one of your steps. So if a friend does you wrong, if you go through a set back, if you lose a loved one, you can either embrace that change and God will use it to take you higher or you can resist it and just settle for mediocrity. We have to stay open for change! I don't want to approach change from a negative view to where I’m automatically thinking it's going to end up bad. It may be negative on the surface but I don't think God would allow it, if He didn't have a purpose for it. He's going to use it to stretch me and somehow push me to a new level. It seems that what may be a perfectly fine situation for years, all of the sudden you notice a stirring taking place. It feels like every day is an up hill battle, it's easy to get negative and bitter, and wonder "God, why is this happening?" That's a sign transition is coming. I'm trying to just stay open and know that God is still in control, that He is opening up a new door to take me to a higher level. Yeah, I still try to resist it, holding on to things that God has been done with for years. Sometimes it may be a relationship that deep down I know isn't good for me. I know they are keeping me from being my best. But I still hold on to them.
One thing I tend to fear when you change, you may end up losing a few friends, then your worried your going to be lonely, so you just don't want to rock the boat. That's why sometimes God will turn the boat over. Sometimes God will force you to move forward, not because He's mean, not because He's trying to make your life miserable, but because He has such a great desire to see you reach your full potential... He may cause a friend to walk away, He'll stir things up and maybe even allow a friend to do you wrong, because He knows that if He doesn't close that door, we would never move ahead. Thirty years later that friend would still be dragging us down, keeping us from our destiny. If He doesn't shut certain doors, we'd be satisfied to just where we are forever. Sometime that's why the reason God closes a door is so we can't go back. You won't reach your full potential if you stay in your limited environment. So I try not be discouraged by the people that leave my life... it sometimes may feel like it's the end but really it is only the beginning. God would not have stirred it up if He didn't have something better in store. So it’s like, you may think that they were doing you wrong, when really they were doing you a favor! Just wave goodbye, never look back and just keep moving forward.
Don't hold onto the old even though it may seem like it's human nature to always go back to it. When a season is over, you have to learn to accept it and embrace the new. What was good in the past, was right for the past, it was right for that time. We can't try to hold onto something that was right at one time but is not right at this moment! Where something starts, isn't always where it finishes. I need to quit dwelling on the past or sometimes how good it use to be. It's a new day. It’s time to accept where I am right now and learn to embrace change! Not play it safe. Step out of my comfort zone! Figure out what God is trying to do in my life and not be stubborn. Not be discourage by what didn't work out. Take a step of faith! I have new victories in front of me... new mountains to climb. God's may be trying to stir me out of my nest. As I begin to take these steps of faith, I believe I’m going to discover I have gifts and talents I never knew I had. Do things I never thought I could do! Mainly because God's dream for my life is so much bigger than my own. Time to dust myself off and get ready for the new things that are about to happen. Try something new. Stay hopeful.

"The winds I thought would destroy me, are going to be the winds that take me higher."

rEVOLution:

2008-04-19T00:11:00.002-05:00

a drastic and far-reaching change in ways of thinking and behaving.

I find myself intrigued by this word.

Walk By Faith, Not By Sight...

2008-04-06T22:53:00.005-05:00

"As You take steps of faith, depending on Me, I will show you how much I can do for you. If you live your life too safely, you will never know the thrill of seeing Me work through you. When I gave you My Spirit, I empowered you to live beyond your natural ability and strength. That's why it is so wrong to measure your energy level against the challenges ahead of you. The issue is not your strength but Mine, which is limitless. By walking close to Me you can accomplish My purposes in My strength."

"Trust keeps you close to Me, responsive to My will. Trust is not a natural response, especially for those who have been wounded."

"The more difficult your day, the more I yearn to help you. Anxiety wraps you up in yourself, trapping you in your own thoughts."

"I want you to realize how utterly secure you are! Even if you falter as you journey through life, I will never let go of your hand."

Continually ringing in my mind...
The next step is close. As afraid of it I may be, I can't let fear hold me back.
I just pray I make the right choice/s.

Barely hanging on...

2008-04-03T16:56:00.002-06:00

3 definitions for uncomfortable (adj.):
-Experiencing physical discomfort.
-Ill at ease; uneasy.
-Causing anxiety; disquieting.

http://www.timmygibson.com

2008-03-29T18:26:00.003-06:00

Just Do It. Thanks, Soul Sista.

2008-03-28T23:34:00.002-06:00

Oh, sweet blogger...

2008-03-28T23:21:00.002-06:00

I have one question...

How are you spending your time?

...It's crazy, you may never know if your using it to the fullest potential. Although, you should.
I'm working on that. Finishing what I started(FINALLY) and starting what I should have a long time ago. Life goes by so fast. How are you spending your time?

I had a good push to get me where I'm at... for that I am thankful.

Writings on the wall...

2008-03-14T15:23:00.003-06:00

Put on the wall of a school a year or so ago...

After scrubbing and painting... the crew and I come across these magnet words. Of course most of the things we wrote didn't make sense but I really enjoyed this one.

So here's to memories and time lost.

I'll be there...

2008-03-04T16:44:00.003-06:00

So I decided to listen to my old Now 6 cd(aren't they on 20 something now?)... Well I forgot how much I love Incubus - Drive...
It's a good song.

Sometimes I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I cant help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer
It's driven me before, it seems to have a vague
Haunting mass appeal
Lately I'm beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there
So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive, oh oh
It's driven me before, it seems to be the way
That everyone else get around
Lately, I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself, my light is found
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there
Would you choose water over wine
Hold the wheel and drive

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there

*I could be wrong...

2008-02-12T15:55:00.000-06:00

To laugh is to risk appearing a fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out to another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.
To place your ideas and dreams before a crowd is to risk their loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To hope is to risk despair.
To try is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing.
He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he cannot learn, feel, change, grow or live.
Chained by his servitude, he is a slave who has forfeited all freedom.
Only a person who takes risks is free.

LOVE this picture...

2008-01-26T23:43:00.000-06:00

So I went to the KU game with my brothers and Shelly, my brother's girlfriend. It was really fun! We waited outside in the cold for about a hour and a half and then rushed to get good seat since it is first come first serve. THEN waited another hour and a half or so for the game to start. Well here's a little situation we ran into... it's about a half hour before the game starts so Jordan and I decide to go to the bathroom before and then check out the concessions. We were probably gone like 10 minutes and I'm walking back to my seat when I see Branton and Shelly arguing with one of the usher type guys... I'm walking up slowly because I'm thinking a fight broke out or something so I'm like great!! Turns out the guy was trying to give our seats away. Everyone around that we had been talking to for over an hour that were sitting around us were yelling at the guy too. Branton yells at me "GET OVER HERE!" Finally the guy backed down. They started filling in seats from the front to back with people who were showing up late. Where were they we we were standing out side freezing?! Some guy in a power suit thinks he can walk in last minute and have his spot handed to him on a silver platter!? I was so annoyed. HA. Besides that little incident, the game was amazing. KU kicked Iowa State's butt! :)

Finally I'm posting this...

2008-01-26T23:17:00.000-06:00

This is when I was in Kansas City last month... I wrote about it a couple posts down. It really gets me fired up!!!

Thank you Bla Bla...

2008-01-13T22:31:00.000-06:00

That's what's up...

2008-01-11T14:32:00.000-06:00

It's my birthday.

...Another day, just like any other day.

Here's to 2008...

There's no place like home...

2007-12-21T22:57:00.000-06:00

Here is my little diddy for you... I was in Overland Park for a day, spent all day with my cousin and his family. I had a blast... well the plan was just for the morning I'd hang with them but when I heard they would be picketing against Fred Phelps aka "God hates fags" guy... I said "Oh, I'm so there!" This guy is crazy! Of course my mom thought I would end up in cuffs but it was peaceful and he didn't show. I also stuck near Jana because if he would have been there and anyone would have got in my face..... well I'm not one to back down, hence the reason my mother was worried. Haha. If it came down to it and I truly had to stand down, I would have for my cuz. :P I think two news crews showed up. I know I had some air time on one channel. When the clip is online, I'll try to post it. In town one day and I made the news. ;)

Our signs read:
NO MORE HATE.
GOD LOVES EVERYONE.
GOD LOVES GAY'S.
9/11 BROKE GOD'S HEART.
GOD BLESS AMERICA.

The church at Westboro which Fred Phelps leads has 71 confirmed members, 60 of whom are related to Phelps through blood or marriage or both. The homophobic Westboro Baptist Church began picketing the funerals of U.S. soldiers who have died in Iraq and Afghanistan. The group has used the same tactic against the gay community at hundreds of events nationwide. Some of the signs they hold read, "God is your enemy," God hates fags," "9/11 gift from God," "God hates the U.S.A.," "Your sons are in hell" and this list goes on and on!

Let me just leave you with that.

All I need...

2007-12-16T00:04:00.000-06:00

Left my fear by the side of the road

Hear You speak, won't let go

Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray

Got every reason to be here again

A Father's love that draws me in

And all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is You Lord

One more day and it's not the same

Your Spirit calls my heart to sing

Drawn to the voice of my Saviour once again

Where would my soul be without Your Son

Gave His life to save the earth

Rest in the thought that You're watching over me

You hold the universe
You hold everyone on earth
You hold the universe

2007-12-07T18:01:00.000-06:00

Not simply going to just survive anymore...

Where do you stand?

2007-11-22T23:55:00.000-06:00

You don't get far by standing in the middle! Its hard to tell exactly where you are. Because both sides see that you have no view and what you do doesn't impress them either. They keep pushing while you resist. It starts to wear you to the very core. How can we ever think of compromising?

Not much to say...

2007-11-15T22:32:00.000-06:00

I find myself writing in the midst of silence... yet the music is loud.

"Because that's what people do, they leap, and hope to God they can fly, because otherwise you just drop like a rock, wondering the whole way down, why did I jump? But here I am, falling, and the only one that can make me feel like I can fly, is you."

poor man's copyright... 91'

2007-09-27T20:20:00.001-05:00

There are things that I am learning
That I feel I need to share
Tho' these lessons come with anguish
And, a heavy load to bear

To trust the Lord, is not so tough
When the days are warm and light
But, to learn the truth of trusting
You must walk with just His light

For if wheree're you look is darkness
And you can't feel what's ahead
To take a step in simple faith
Is more than just words said

For words and thoughts come quickly
And are not easy to retrieve
But the price of knowing what you say
Is what you do believe

Comes with an all-out battle
Where you're bruised, hit hard, and fought
And the lessons that are learned thru' this
Cannot be simply taught

What I'm trying hard to say to you
Is that my Lord is real
And not a Sunday morning thing
Or a statue where you kneel

He's a resurrected Savior King
He's your very closet friend
And He'll always bring the victory
For with Him there is no end.

This is hilarious!

2007-09-14T16:29:00.001-05:00

There's No Place Like Home...

2007-09-14T12:57:00.000-05:00

This is the first time in a long time I haven't been clicking my heels...

Coming back bold.....

2007-09-13T11:48:00.000-05:00

;)

It's what it is, yo.

Wooo...

2007-09-13T08:57:00.000-05:00

Kansas baby. Umm... having a blast. be back soon. loves to all!
not sure what to write!?

Day 2

2007-09-07T14:57:00.000-05:00

What's to say.... just working at the office. Went to lunch with the some of the staff and wives. Going to the plaza tonight. after dinner we are taking one of the homeless ladies he met when he did 24 hours as a homeless person a plate of food. her name is Sally and I tried to meet her the day I came down but we couldn't find her.

I'll write more on monday! gotta get back to work!

There's No Place Like Home...

2007-09-06T17:05:00.000-05:00

Well for those who do not know... I'm in Kansas for a couple weeks. I'm interning at a church here. Check it out... www.olathelifefellowship.org

My cousin is the pastor... I'm living with him and his family, wife, two kids and a cute pomeranian. It's a pretty sweet time. His daughter is 9 and loves art so that'll be fun. She has a lot of art stuff. The pup slept with me... such a cute little fuzz ball. I'll try and update every day. CRAZY.

So DAY 1:

Staff meeting then worked in the office went home for lunch then came back...
it's now 5 and I'm heading home. umm... I don't know what else to add. ;)

WOO HOO.

Long awaited and way over due!

2007-08-06T19:53:00.000-05:00

At this point in my life... I have a lot of choices. They will make or break me. It definitely terrifies me beyond belief!

Trust: Firm belief in the reliabilty, truth, ability or strength in someone or something
Faith: Complete trust or confidence in someone or something
Hope: A feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen

The truth is... my future is already decided.

Lord, I pray that you give me strength and wisdom!
I'm lost without you and so desperate for you!
I cannot do it on my own, I cannot do it all alone.
Here I am, with my arms open wide...

Jesus, I surrender!!!

-I read this article today that said blogging is all the rage and to mix it up make a playlist on iTunes that discribes your mood. That's something.

2007-07-25T00:58:00.000-05:00

I will be updating very soon! Thanks for being patient. :)

2007-07-08T18:11:00.000-05:00

I look down this long, wide road, I see three paths. I stop to look. The first, a long path of what the world holds for me. It seems to be full of things that consume my mind, but it quickly fades away. I glance to the second, a thin, unfinished road that suddenly stops. I see nothing there for me. But this third path, it is intriguing. I hear a faint whisper in the distance, saying "fear not my child..." I feel security as I step toward this road that is well paved. The voice begins to get louder, calling to me! Along this path, a small trail leads off... I see a small boy. He calls for his father. I reach out to grab his hand and pull him back to the path, when I hear this strong voice again saying, "well done." I continue to walk this road, then suddenly, I hear a woman crying up ahead. I come to her, she has lost her daughter down a dark path. I reach into the darkness, I feel nothing. I step closer, I start to fall when I feel someone take my hand pulling me back to the path I once traveled. I see the mother still crying. I want to help, but I do not want to get lost again. I hear Him calling again... I call out for His help! I don't hear anything... I wait. I began to call out again, "please help this girl." When the mother says, "I can see her." Beside her walks a man, wiping away her tears along the way. I continue to walk... tears fall. Then I feel someone brush away the tears. I look to my side and I see Him again... I ask "where did you come from?" He said "I was here all along, you just finally chose to see me."